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100. Two Decades and two years.Firstly, apologies. Inbox is full of old messages that should have been replied to ages ago.100. Two Decades and two years. by shadowvaen
Second(ly)...how have you guys been?
So here I am again. It's been a LONG time since I last wrote. I didn't think I would ever write here again, honestly. It's too hard to find the time on my own to get on here and write. Even if I had the time to sit uninterrupted and write, the words probably wouldn't flow, anyway.
The memory of this place is bittersweet. So many of the old faces are gone. There's the memory of the good experiences that I've had on this site. Then there's the reason I started writing here in the first place, and suddenly it's not just a bittersweet memory to think upon, but a scar on my mind and soul, painful and humiliating to think about. The last four years of my life have ruined me, what little control I had spiraled out of my grip in 2010 and I was left with pieces to pick up and try and move on.
I did move on, but I've changed. I'm st